I need to chill the fuck out before I actually kidnap him to a deserted island where I don’t have to share him with anyone else.
I go to wash my hands in the bathroom and as I leave, I catch a glimpse of Grace walking down the hall in my direction.
So I know I promised Bran I wouldn’t talk to her, but she’s the one who stops in front of me. Technically, I’m not the one who broke the promise.
She gives me a once-over as if I’m a cockroach stuck beneath her heel, then lifts her chin with an air of simmering arrogance.
Arms crossed, her witchy long red nails tap impatiently on the arm of her black jacket. “What’s your name again?”
“If you don’t remember it, that could be an early sign of dementia. I suggest you call your doctor.”
“You believe yourself to be funny?”
“Not intentionally.”
“I just don’t see it.”
“Your dementia? No one does at early stages.”
“I don’t see how someone like you”—she does that condescending once-over again—“can be with a gracious man like Bran. It just doesn’t add up.”
“And that’s any of your business because?”
“I don’t like seeing him wasting his talents or time on delinquents such as yourself. You must’ve threatened him with something.”
I lean back against the wall. “Again, I really don’t see why this concerns you. Hate to say it, but you’re starting to sound and look like an annoying Karen. What Bran and I do with our relationship has nothing to do with you. Pick up whatever dignity you have left and walk away.”
“Relationship?” She laughs, the sound throaty and evil. “Relationship, you say. You’re delusional, boy. Bran doesn’t do those.”
“He does with me.”
“You think you know him better than me?” Her voice and face become stone-cold. “You’re nothing in the grand scheme of things.”
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
She uncrosses her arms and points a finger at me. “It means you should back off and leave him alone.”
“Or what?”
“You don’t want the answer to that.”
“No, I do.”
A wicked look passes through her beady eyes, then she flips her hair. “Give me your number. I’ll send you a goodbye gift.”
After I do just that to mess with her, she walks away with a sway to her hips and a flick of her hair.
Forget about Bran being uncomfortable around her. I don’t like the bitch one bit. There’s a sinister edge that she hides so well in public and shows so readily in private, and that in and of itself is a red flag.
Could it be that he’s not only stressed due to the agent thing?
I make a note to ask him about that later.
My feet lead me to the studio, and I smile mischievously when I realize I can snoop around without Bran knowing.
He’s been so secretive about what he’s working on and told me to be patient, but we both know I don’t have that.
I snatch his sketchpad and my lips part as I flip through dozens of sketches of me. Not my tattoos as I thought, but my actual face.
There are pages upon pages of my face from different angles with my hair mostly loose, but there are some where my hair is tied into a ponytail or a bun.
And he put so many details in my eyes. Some are glaring, others are when I stare at him while smiling, but my favorites are of the intense look in my eyes during sex.
Fuck me. He drew eyes for the first time in years and they’re mine.
The following pages are full-body sketches, and fuck me. He’s so thorough about details, from the way I arch my eyebrow to the tiny dimple at the corner of my mouth when I smile. It’s like I’m staring at a mirror.
I spend what seems like half an hour going through the sketches. When I’m done, I find two more notepads stacked full of me—mostly in the nude.
My lotus flower might pretend to be a prude, but I knew he loved seeing me naked.
Note to self: From now on, walk around the penthouse in no clothes.
My grin is permanent as I flip through them, greedily storing every detail in my memory.
But then it changes.
My smile falls when I see something different.
He sketched me half naked and there’s what I assume is his silhouette beside me, but he’s faceless. On the next page, there’s a contour of his face, but chaotic black lines fill his features. On the following page, he drew black lines so deep, they punctured the paper.
Fuck.
Please don’t tell me this is how he sees himself.
My phone vibrates and I think it’s him, so I put the sketchpads exactly where I found them.
After I pull out my phone, I suddenly feel parched, so I pour a glass of water from the jug he keeps on the table.
The glass remains suspended in midair as I open the text I got from a number I don’t recognize.
Your goodbye gift.
I click on the video attached, and my entire body tenses.
The surveillance footage shows an extravagant living room with a plush carpet and a white sofa. A younger version of Bran, no older than fifteen or sixteen, sits in the corner, doodling in a notebook. My fingers clench the glass when I make out Grace sitting close beside him with a slim arm thrown over his shoulder. She’s wearing a red satin camisole and shorts that are definitely not appropriate.
“I just don’t get it.” He sighs. “What does Lan have that I don’t?”
“Nothing, hon,” she coos and strokes his hair.
“But he gets all the girls.”
“They don’t matter. You’re the one who’s meant for greatness.”
“Really?” He peeks at her, sheepish and hopeful, and my heart starts fucking racing beneath my rib cage.
“Really.” Her grating fake soft voice echoes in the air. “As for the girls, they’re nothing. I’m more mature and beautiful. And guess what? I find you much more charismatic than him.”
“You…do?”
She kisses him and he wraps a hand around her neck to kiss her back, but it’s awkward and unsure at best.
The piece of fucking shit doesn’t seem to notice that as she unbuttons his shirt. “I’ll make you feel like you’re better than him, and one day, I’ll make you his god.”
He nods once, but he doesn’t touch her as she kisses his neck, his chest, and then pulls down his pants. He squirms when she wraps her hand around his dick. He tries to get away when she slides her shorts down her legs and positions herself on top of him.
“I…don’t like this,” he whispers, and his voice is so low, I wouldn’t have heard it if I didn’t have the volume on high.
“Shh, hon. I promise you’ll enjoy it.” She jerks him a few more times. “See, you’re hard already.”
“Grace…” He gulps, red blotching his entire body. “I don’t think I like sex…please stop…”
“Nonsense, honey. Everyone likes sex.” She strokes his hair and then whispers, “You don’t want to be seen as a freak compared to your brother, do you, Bran? Your mum and dad would be so disappointed.”
He shakes his head once and she comes down on him in one go. He screams. And it’s not from pleasure.
He screams and it sounds like a “No…”
But I can’t listen to what he has to say anymore because she slaps a hand on his mouth as she moans. The muffled sounds that rip from him as he tries to wiggle away will haunt me for the rest of my fucking life.
“Mmmmno… Mmmm… Mmmm…”
A breaking sound echoes in the air and a burn spreads through my arm. I can tell I broke the glass and can feel water and blood sliding down my wrist and dripping onto the floor, but I can’t look away from his face.
The confusion.
The pain.
The anger.
Animalistic growls reverberate around me and I realize they’re mine. My body vibrates with rage so extreme, it fills my vision with black. Demons I didn’t know existed flood my bloodstream, and pressure forms behind my eyes.
As I watch and listen, I know, I just know that I’m never coming back from this.