Drawing me back, he lets me go, swinging through the breeze, and I can’t hold it in anymore. I smile, despite myself, closing my eyes and feeling my body fly through the air. I come back, and he pushes me again, this time harder. I clutch the rope, holding it tight to my body, and revel in the lightness in my head and the spin in my stomach.
He grabs the tire and twists it around, sending it and me twirling through the night as it flies away, drifting toward the house and then back to him. I laugh and smile, finally stretching my arms long and tipping my head back as the air sweeps through my hair.
It’s beautiful and wonderful, and I feel free. No wonder she loved it out here.
It’s almost enough to make me forget how hurt I was. I don’t want him to leave.
But I’m not sure he should’ve come.
The tire spins, slowing down as Kaleb stops pushing me and lets me come to rest. My stomach settles again, and the world stops turning. I stare down at the ground as he stops the tire, standing behind me.
“How did you know about the tire swing?” I ask, but I don’t expect an answer, of course.
He hands me a piece of paper, folded many times, and I take it, opening it up.
As soon as the image comes into view, I know it instantly. It’s a print-out of an article—one of many about my parents. My father pushes my mother on the swing in this very spot, the brightest smiles I’ve ever seen on their faces.
In the distance, above and barely visible, is me. No more than seven or eight, staring down at them from my window with my chin resting on my hands.
I refold the paper and hand it back to him.
“I can’t believe you’re here,” I tell him just above a whisper. “You actually left Colorado.”
“It was time,” he says.
I suck in a breath, his words hitting me like truck.
What?
I slide off the tire and turn to face him not believing what I just heard. Deep but soft. Clear and strong. He spoke.
Kaleb spoke.
Walking around the tire, he steps toward me. “My home is where you are,” he says quietly.
I shake my head, and I’m not sure if I just don’t believe I’m hearing this finally, or if I can’t believe that I can’t remember why the hell I was angry in the first place. It’s like everything is washing away, and those words were all I needed to hear.
Reaching into his back pocket, he pulls out a gray paperback that looks familiar.
“I found the book.” He hands it to me.
I take it, seeing it’s The Sirens of Titan we were reading at the fishing cabin. We meant to finish when we got back home, but we’d realized we left it behind accidentally.
“After you left, I went to the cabin for a long time and started reading it from the beginning.”
I listen, loving the sound of his beautiful voice. Velvety and soothing, but his words still thick. These words are all new to him.
“Out loud,” he adds.
He practiced speaking the last six weeks by reading out loud.
I wipe the corner of my eye.
He comes in, caressing my face and catching a tear before it falls.
“Do you hear yourself better now?” he asks. “Alone?”
I smile a little. He found my note. His eyes are still always formidable, but his tone… It betrays his insecurity. He’s worried I don’t want him anymore.
“I think I’m ready to hear both of us now,” I tell him. “You?”
He nods. “I needed to learn it, too,” he explains. “I needed to hear myself. I’m sorry…it took so long.”
I smile, and he dives in and kisses me. I circle my arms around his waist, warmth coursing down my body instantly.
Kaleb…
He kisses slow and then fast, dipping his tongue in and then nibbling and tugging my bottom lip. “I go where you go,” he whispers between kisses.
“Will you be happy?”
I would love to settle back in Chapel Peak—or better yet, at that cabin someday. Albeit with some renovations and expansions. But I have things to do first. Is he coming into the world with me?
He stops and looks down into my eyes. “I won’t be happy without you,” he states. “I know that.”
And that’s all I need to know. As long as we’re together, we’re home. It doesn’t matter where.
“I love you,” I tell him.
He touches his nose to mine. “I love you, too.”
My chest shakes, and I try not to sob like an imbecile. It feels so good to hear that, though. Finally.
We kiss and hold each other, and I’m already making plans in my head of how we’ll spend the months until design school starts. “Keep talking,” I beg.
I love his voice.
He chuckles, low and heady. “What should I say?”
“Anything.” I smile. “Read to me, I guess?”
He grabs the backs of my thighs and lifts me up, wrapping my legs around his body.
“Show me your books,” he murmurs against my mouth.
“They’re in my bedroom.”
He catches my lips between his teeth, a promise in his dark tone. “I was hoping they were.”
I smile and hug him to me as he carries me into the house.
Kaleb
Five Years Later…
I run my thumb over her lips as she moves on top of me, grinding and taking me inside her.
God, this girl loves tents. Fucking hell.
Her back arches and her hair falls down her spine as she rides me, and I lean back on one hand, holding her hip with my other.
Fuck, baby. I groan.
“Kaleb,” Tiernan whimpers.
She digs her nails into my shoulders and comes in, kissing me, her taste and heat making my fucking head spin. This is the second time in six hours, her climbing on top of me and stirring me awake at the crack of dawn just ten minutes ago.
How easily I stir for her, though. My beautiful girl.
Rocks shuffle and crackle on the beach, and I know someone else is up in the camp. I fist her hair, holding her tight to quiet her.
She slows down, calming her breathing, so we don’t embarrass ourselves in front of the others, but she keeps rolling her hips. Softly. Silently. Tonguing my lips, my goddamn stomach flipping as she drives me fucking crazy.
“You feel so good,” she mouths across my lips. “I love you, baby.”
My heart swells. I paw her tit, squeezing it and wanting it in my mouth.
But my cock throbs, warms, and I hold my breath as she quickens her pace, her hot body fucking me so good.
We come, our breath stuttering and fighting to keep quiet as her tight pussy squeezes around me in wet heat. I spill inside of her, dropping my head back as I pulse and jerk, going as deep as I can.
I gasp for breath. Shit.
She falls into me, and we crash back to the sleeping bags, droplets of morning dew dotting the roof of our red tent.
Over the years, in all of the tents, cabins, motels, and truck beds we’ve slept in on our hikes and travels, she is always extra horny in tents. I don’t know why.
I kiss her, gripping her hair on the top of her head as I hold her to me.
“I never want to let you go,” I breathe out. “Not even to piss.”
She laughs. “You have to,” she says. “It’s your turn this morning.”
I grunt my displeasure at the reminder. I hate making him eat that gross shit.
She rolls off me, and I gaze longingly at her ass for a few more precious moments before I slip into my jeans and take the small bag she hands me.
I leave the tent and rise, stretching my arms above my head and taking in a breath of warm July air. The pond and waterfall lay ahead, my dad down on the rocky beach, working the fishing pole already. I grin. Hunting and fishing was the one thing we really liked doing together. I should’ve done it with him more growing up.
I wash up in the pot of water and rinse my face before drying off and taking the bag Tiernan gave me over to the green tent next to us. Unzipping it, I lean down and step in, seeing Noah still passed out on his back with my son tucked in his arm.
I stand there, appreciating the view for a moment. Griffin is eighteen months, and even though it was hard for Tiernan to finish her degree as a new mom, she did it. With some help from me. We stayed in Seattle for a year after she graduated, raising him and road-tripping, but finally now, we’re home in Chapel Peak.
Noah opens his eyes, yawning. “Hey.”
I kneel down, rubbing Griff’s hair as he still lies asleep. “Thanks for watching him,” I whisper. “We needed a night alone.”
I try to pull the kid off him. He needs a diaper change, no doubt.
But Noah tightens his arm around him. “No.” He scowls at me. “The little fucker and I bonded.”
I snort, prying my kid off him anyway. “Get your own.”
I hold my son in my arms as he shifts and yawns. He has sandy blond hair and green eyes, his bare feet half the size of my hand. He’s incredible.
I kiss his cheeks a few times, trying to wake him up. Pulling out the sippy cup Tiernan gave me, I put it to his lips, his eyes finally opening and drinking the milk.
“What the fuck is that?” Noah asks, staring down at the bag.
I pull out the plastic container, opening it up and grabbing the spoon.
“Some avocado and tofu shit,” I tell him, scooping up a serving.
Tiernan is determined he’ll be as much a California kid as a Colorado one. She can keep that delusion, because this kid will be all mine the moment he tastes barbecue ribs for the first time.
“He can’t eat tofu in Chapel Peak,” Noah tells me. “He’ll get bullied.”
“Shut up.”
I feed Griff, his pouty, little lips scarfing down the food, and I laugh to myself. He’ll eat pretty much anything. I guess the longer he doesn’t know how awful this tastes compared to just about everything else, the better.
“Happy to be home?” Noah asks.
I nod, feeding the kid more and more. “Yeah.”
“You gonna stay out of trouble?”
“Nope,” I reply.
Noah chuckles as he lies next to us.
Dad is in California a lot now, Van der Berg Extreme merging with JT Racing about four years ago. Since the owners of JTR preferred to stay at their home base in Shelburne Falls, Illinois, it ended up being pretty perfect. Dad runs the California branch, and Noah races our bikes with their engines.
Tiernan and I moved into the house here, but just until construction on our own place—a little lower on the mountain—is finished. Which will take more than a year, I’m sure.
The only thing other than a house that Tiernan demanded on the new property was a place to land a helicopter. There was no way she was letting me stitch up our kid if he got injured. She wanted him airlifted to a hospital with local anesthesia.
I’ll continue customizations, she’ll design homes, décor, and furniture as the weather permits, and we’ll live for the winter and the warmth and our family with some adventures on the side.
I keep feeding Griffin, but I feel Noah’s eyes on me, like he has more to say.
“What do you want me to do with her ashes?” he finally asks.
Her ashes…
I don’t look at him, scraping the container and doling out the rest to the kid.
I shrug. “Take ’em, I guess.”
This is why he’s back. Why my father returned. Why we decided to go camping and be together and remember what we have to be grateful for as a family.
Anna Leigh is dead. My mother.
Our mother.
My throat tightens as Griff looks up at me, his big, emerald eyes watching me.
I force a smile for him.
“It’s surreal,” Noah says quietly. “I think she was really someone very different down deep. If not for the drugs.”
Why would he think that? She wasn’t on drugs in prison. She was in there fifteen years total, with some spells on the outside in between, and the only time she touched base was for money. Theft, robbery, dealing…negligence with her child. She was a bad person.