“Huh?”
“1992 cult classic?” Danni explains. “Luke Perry? His name is Pike in the movie?”
Normally I would laugh at her verbal diarrhea, but my head is swimming and my stomach is doing somersaults. He’s here? He’s really here?
There’s silence for a moment, and then Pike asks, “So, does Jordan work here? I really need to see her.”
He sounds vulnerable, his voice making me realize I missed him even more than I thought I did.
But somewhere inside, my strength grows, and I steel my spine, ready to show him I’m not going to hide from him. I don’t know why he’s here, but if he tries to make demands again like when I tried to move back with my dad, I don’t feel like it will be hard for me to stand up and stay defiant. He won’t tell me what to do.
No matter how hard he tries.
Stepping out from behind the corner, I enter the lobby, seeing Pike standing on the other side of the counter. His gaze immediately locks on me.
He inhales a breath and just stares, his body rigid.
I take in his black T-shirt and deeper tan, like he’s had a full summer working outdoors, and my heart flutters at the sight of those piercing and warm hazel eyes and big hands that have picked me up and carried me half a dozen times. He looks taller, but I know he hasn’t grown, of course.
Danni hops off her stool. “I’ll just…go check on my grandma,” she says and quietly walks past me, to her apartment.
Pike stands between the front door and desk, fisting his hands at his sides and looking like he’s about to move forward but doesn’t.
I walk to the desk and set the paper down. “What?” I ask.
But again, he just stands there like he’s in a trance.
The back of my neck breaks out in a sweat, and I’m getting nervous. Why is he just standing there, staring at me? “What do you want?” I press, my tone curt.
He opens his mouth but then closes it swallowing.
“Pike, Jesus—”
“The day you left,” he blurts out, and I stop.
I wait, listening as a look of fear crosses his eyes.
“The house was so empty,” he continues. “Like a quiet that was never there before. I couldn’t hear your footsteps upstairs or your hairdryer or anticipate you walking into a room. You were gone. Everything was…” he drops his eyes, “gone.”
A ball lodges in my throat, and I feel tears threaten, but I tense my jaw, refusing to let it out.
“But I could still feel you,” he whispers. “You were still everywhere. The container of cookies in the fridge, the backsplash you picked out, the way you put all my pictures back in the wrong spot after you dusted my bookshelves.” He smiles to himself. “But I couldn’t rearrange them, because you were the last to touch them, and I wanted everything the way you had it.”
My chin trembles, and I fold my arms over my chest, hiding my balled fists under my arms.
He pauses and then goes on. “Nothing would ever go back to the way it was before you came into my house. I didn’t want it to.” He shakes his head. “I went to work, and I came home, and I stayed there every night and all weekend, every weekend, because that’s where we were together. That’s where I could still feel you.” He steps closer, dropping his voice. “That’s where I could wrap myself up in you and hang on to every last thread in that house that proved you were mine for just a little while.”
His tone grows thick, and I see his eyes water.
“I really thought I was doing what was best,” he says, knitting his brow. “I thought I was taking advantage of you, because you’re young and beautiful and so happy and hopeful despite everything you’d been through. You made me feel like the world was a big place again.”
My breathing shakes, and I don’t know what to do. I hate that he’s here. I hate that I love that he’s here. I hate him.
“I couldn’t steal your life from you and keep you to myself, you know?” he explains. “But then I realized that you’re not happy or hopeful or making me feel good because you’re young. You are those things and you’re capable of those things, because you’re a good person. It’s who you are.”
A tear spills over, gliding down my cheek.
“Baby,” he whispers, his hands shaking. “I hope you love me, because I love you like crazy, and I’m going to want you the rest of my life. I tried to stay away, because I thought it was the right thing, but I fucking can’t. I need you, and I love you. This doesn’t happen twice, and I’m not going to be stupid again. I promise.”
My chin trembles, and something lodges in my throat, and I try to hold it in, but I can’t. My face cracks, and I break down, turning away from him. The tears come like a goddamn waterfall, and I hate him. I fucking hate him.
His arms are around me in a second, and he hugs me from behind, burying his face in my neck.
“I’m sorry I took so long,” he whispers in my ear.
“You did,” I cry. “You took so long.”
“I’ll make it up to you.” He turns me around and clutches my face, pressing his lips to my ear. “I promise.”
He holds me for a while, and my pride tells me not to give in. Not to let anyone in and no more second chances.
But I’m not completely certain I wouldn’t do the same thing if I were in his shoes. Cole, Lindsay, Shel, my sister, Dutch, the whole neighborhood…they’ll talk. Some will judge him for this. His fear is justified.
But they don’t know. They don’t know how lucky we are and how good it is.
I love him.
I pull away and wipe at my tear drops on his T-shirt. “And I didn’t put the picture frames back in the wrong spot,” I tell him. “That’s where they belong.”
He laughs, wiping away the tears on my face, and brings me in, kissing me. Everything floods back—his mouth, soft but strong, and his taste—and kiss him back, rising up on my tiptoes to deepen it.
“Need a room?” someone chimes in. “You came to the right place.”
I pull away again, and Pike clears his throat as Danni walks in and sits back on the stool.
“Pike, this is Danni,” I say. “Danni, Pike.”
“Nice to meet you,” she says.
“Yeah, you, too.” He holds out his hand, and they shake.
“So, do you guys want a room?” she asks again. “On the house?”
She pulls the last room key out of the cubbie and holds it out.
He leans over, taking it. “Thank you. Really. That’d be great.”
She shifts her gaze to me, and I can tell she’s looking for confirmation that everything is okay. I nod, assuring her.
“Well, have a good night,” she tells us. “I’ll see you in the morning.”
Pike takes my hand, and we walk outside, the humid August air already damp on my arms. He clutches me like he’s going to lose me as we walk to his truck and retrieve his duffel bag and a little package. I laugh, seeing mud still all over his door and the tires.
Walking to the room, I pass the five I doled out to “Tyler” and his ladies, and I can hear music, chatter, and laughing from inside several of them. We pass another room with curtains drawn, but light from the TV pierces the fabric.
Up the sidewalk, one of the regulars, Peter, walks to the Coke machine with a sword strapped to his naked back and wearing his usual black leather pants.
“What the hell is that?” Pike mumbles to me, looking at him.
“That’s Peter,” I say, admiring the black hair that drapes damn-near down to his waist. “He’s here every weekend, LARPing.”
Pike pinches his brows together and looks at me.
“Live Action Role Playing,” I explain. “Sometimes he brings a beautiful Elvish princess and they get kinky. You can hear it through the walls.”
He snorts as we reach our room, and he unlocks the door. I step inside and walk over to the night stand, turning on the lamp as he shuts and locks the door.
“Can I take you home tomorrow?” he asks. “I’m anxious.”
I peer up at him. “Anxious for what?”
He just quirks a smile. “Everything, I guess.”
He tosses a little box at me, and I reach up, catching it.
“What’s this?” I ask.
“Open it.”
I walk to the sink and face the mirror, tearing off the tape. Ripping open the box, I dig out three cassette tapes, and immediately start grinning.
“I found some 80’s music for you I can stand,” he says, coming up behind me as I inspect the new additions to my collection.
“AC/DC,” I read the labels. “Metallica…Beastie Boys.”
I look up at him, and he dips down kissing me. I close my eyes, feeling like I’m dizzy. I wonder how much trouble he went through to find these. I hope it was a lot.
I flick his tongue with mine, the kiss turning heated and strong, and I reach around, clasping the back of his neck, not letting him go.
He sucks in air through his teeth, and I can feel him harden through his jeans.
“Baby, I’ve been all over fucking Virginia,” he pants. “I need a shower.”