She smiles. “Hey, guys.” And then she starts unloading her tray, setting a round of shots in front of us. They’re pink or orange on the bottom with some kind of yellow liquid on top.
“What is this?” Jason Bryant, one of my guys, asks.
“It’s called a Pineapple Upside Down Cake,” she says. “It’s on the house. Jordan says they’re Pike’s favorite.”
A round of laughter explodes around the table at the “chick” shot everyone now thinks I drink, and I shoot Jordan a look at the bar.
She grins, giving me her biggest, proudest smile.
And now we’re not mad at each other anymore.
Taking the shot, I down it, the alcohol going down like a piece of candy, and while it tastes fine, I’m not sure what the point is. There can’t be enough alcohol in it to feel anything.
I’m sure it will be a successful running joke if I ever decide to join the guys for a drink again, though.
After about an hour and another beer, the crowd has thinned a little, and I’m pretty tapped out on 80’s music. Jordan seems fine, and I’m not sure why I thought she needed protecting.
I should just hit the road.
But just then, a Corona appears in front of me, and I look up, seeing Jordan standing over me.
“Hey,” she says, her expression soft and gentle.
I’m sure it would be like that all the time if I would just stop fucking with it.
“You doing okay, sugar?” Dutch asks her.
She glances at him and smiles and then looks back down at me. “I was going to call you, actually,” she tells me, lowering her voice. “I don’t know if you’re staying late, but I was wondering if there was any way you could bring me home tonight. I don’t get off until two. Is that too late?”
Her eyes are apologetic like she’s afraid she’s being an inconvenience, but of course, I told her to tell me if she needs a ride home. I’m happy to do it.
“No problem. I’ll be here.”
But Dutch nudges my elbow. “We gotta be at the site by five a.m., just remember.”
“It’s fine,” I say curtly, barely looking at him.
Of course, I’d love to get more than a couple hours of sleep, but this isn’t a choice.
Jordan takes a step back. “Are you sure?” she asks again. “I could ask Shel. It’s a little out of her way, but I don’t want you losing sleep.”
“It’s fine,” I assure her. “I’ll be here.”
“Well, why don’t you just give her your keys?” Dutch speaks up. “I’ll drop you at home, and she can have your truck. I’m getting out of here soon anyway.”
Mother— What is his goddamn problem?
But Jordan rushes in, making her apologies. “No, no, it’s okay. I can—”
“Fuck, I said it was fine,” I blurt out, shutting everyone up. Then I glare at Dutch. “Would you shut up?”
He turns away, pursing his lips, because he wants to fucking smile like he knows something.
Everyone is still for a moment, and I shake my head, pulling my keys out of my pocket. There’s no logical reason to wait around for her if Dutch is offering me a ride now.
I hand her the keys. “Here you go. It works out perfectly.”
“Are you—”
“Yes, I’m sure,” I tell her. “It’s fine.”
She slides the keys into her pocket. “Thank you.”
“Truck’s parked just around the corner.”
She nods and heads back to the bar, glancing back at me once. I check my phone, seeing it’s nearly midnight, and if Dutch is giving me a ride, I’d rather get it over with now.
I take a long swig from the Corona, drinking about half. It didn’t escape my notice that she remembered what beer I like, too. Pulling some money out, I toss a few bills on the table for whatever I drank and tell Dutch, “Let’s go.”
He hauls himself out of the booth, his scruffy buzz cut mussed as he yawns. We make our way toward the door, and I pass the bar, tossing a few bills on it in front of Jordan.
She gives me a knowing look. “Didn’t we talk about this?”
“I’m just a customer.”
The look in her eyes says she’s not buying my reason for tipping her, but the humor in her gaze says she’ll let it go. This time.
We leave and walk across the street to Dutch’s Tahoe and climb in.
“You didn’t really want to wait around until two, did you?” he asks as we fasten our seatbelts.
Actually…
“No,” I tell him, deciding I don’t have the energy to get into it. “Thanks for the ride.”
He pulls away from the curb, and I slouch down a little, moving the seat back for more leg room. His wife is usually in this seat. I lie my head back, and into my hand, closing my eyes.
I feel the car make a U-turn and then he speeds down the street, heading home. It’s quiet for a few minutes as he finds a satellite station, and the glare of the street lights glow through my closed lids. It’s a short drive home, but even still, I would’ve liked to have been the one to bring her. Who knows if that shithead ex tries to come around in the next hour? Will she be walking to the car with anyone?
I’m not just worried about her safety, though. I have this urge to make sure she’s okay and taken care of, and while I’ve tried to morph it into a “fatherly” type of responsibility, it’s not.
It never will be.
I like what I feel when I see her and talk to her and think about her. Even when we fight. And I have to admit it to myself—I am attracted to her.
I hate it, but I can’t ignore and pretend it’s not there anymore. I need to deal with it.
It doesn’t have to be a big deal, though. We go through life running into people we’re attracted to all the time. It happens, and you can’t help it. It doesn’t mean I’d try anything. I just feel guilty it happened with her.
And the fact that she’s in my house makes it harder.
Cole really did get the shit-end of the stick with parents. What a fucking piece of work I am.
I can’t help it, but I can make sure I don’t act on it.
She doesn’t make it easy, though, getting into it with me as easily as she does. She knows how to press my buttons. Almost as if she was made for it.
“She seems like a good kid,” Dutch breaks the silence.
I open my eyes, the lids heavy from the long day. “Yeah.” I sigh. “She’s quiet. Clean. I barely know she’s in the house.”
“That’s great.” I can see him glancing over at me from time to time. “Getting along okay?”
“Yeah, why?”
I feel him shrug. “She seems nervous around you.”
I chuckle. He could say the same for me if he were looking close enough.
“Well, I can be intimidating,” I joke.
“Yeah, she looked like she wanted to straddle your hard, intimidating cock right there in the bar.”
My eyes pop open completely, and I glare over at him. “Are you kidding me? What the fuck?”
“Oh, please,” he shoots back. “You’re telling me you didn’t see her fidgeting and biting her lip at just the sight of you when she brought you your favorite beer?”
She was?
“She was like a puppy with her tongue hanging out of her mouth,” he added.
Was she?
I clear my head and look back out the window, puzzlement etched on my face.
Whatever.
“Don’t talk about her like that,” I tell him. “That’s my kid’s girlfriend, man. Come on.”
Straddling my…. I shake my head. Unbelievable.
“So, she’s off limits to you, then?”
“Yes!”
“Then why were you looking at her like you loved what she was wearing and wanted to see it on your bedroom floor tonight?”
“I wasn’t looking at her like that,” I grit out through my teeth.
But he just laughs under his breath.
Asshole.
“Hey, I’m not knocking—”
“Shut up,” I say.
Damn it. It’s not right. It’s bad enough I’m looking at her like she’s an actual woman and not my son’s girl, but I’ll be damned if anyone finds out about it.
“All I’m saying is she’s exactly your type,” he tells me, evening out his voice. “Did you notice that? You always went for girls like her in high school. Before Lindsay, the Trainwreck, anyway.”
“Just shut up.”
But he doesn’t. “I’m not saying you should do anything. And that’s why I stepped in and didn’t let you bring her home.”
His tone turns serious.
“All kidding aside, Pike,” he goes on, “she is exactly your type. You shouldn’t be alone with her.”
Yeah.
I know.
I just hope he’s the only person who’s noticed.
“Thanks for the intervention,” I tell him, “but even if I were attracted to her, I’m capable of controlling myself.”
“You’re not seeing yourself from my perspective.” He looks out the front windshield, solemn. “You look at each other like…”
“Like?”
He swallows, an unusually troubled pinch to his brow. “Like the two of you have your own language.”