Any hope that Hardin would scoop me into his arms and tell me he has missed me is gone. The waitress shows up with my food, and I hand her a twenty, then stand up to leave.
“Well, you guys have a good night,” I tell them. I look at Hardin and then back at the floor.
“Wait,” Hardin says. I turn around and look at him. Please don’t let him make a rude remark or kiss Molly again.
“Aren’t you going to give me a good-night kiss?” He smiles.
I look around at his friends and they all look a little surprised but mostly confused. “W-what?” I stammer. I straighten my shoulders and look at him again.
“You’re not going to kiss me before you go?” He stands up and walks toward me. I wanted this, but now I am uncomfortable with everyone’s eyes on us.
“Um . . .” I don’t know what to say.
“Why would she?” Molly laughs. God, I can’t stand her.
“They are like together, obviously,” Steph tells her.
“What?” Molly says.
“Keep your mouth shut, Molly,” Zed says and I want to thank him, but there is something behind his voice that makes me wonder about his choice of words. This is beyond uncomfortable.
“Bye, guys,” I say again and walk toward the door.
Hardin follows me and grabs my wrist to stop me. “Why are you leaving? And why are you even in this place to begin with?”
“Well, I was hungry and came here to eat. And now I’m leaving because you were ignoring me and I—”
“I wasn’t ignoring you, I just didn’t know what to say or do. I wasn’t expecting to see you here. It caught me off guard,” he explains.
“Yeah, I am sure it did. You haven’t texted me all day and now you’re here with Molly?” My voice comes out much whinier than I wanted.
“And Logan, Tristan, and Steph. Not just Molly,” he points out.
“I know . . . but you guys have a history and that bothers me.” I surely broke the record for the quickest jealous fit.
“It’s just that, babe: history. It wasn’t like this . . . not like us,” he says.
I sigh. “I know, I just can’t help it.”
“I know. How do you think I felt when I walked in there and saw you sitting with Zed?”
“That’s not the same thing. You and Molly have slept together.” Just saying it stings.
“Tess . . .”
“I know, it’s crazy, but I can’t help it.” I look away.
It’s not crazy. I understand. I just don’t know what to do about it. Molly is in our group and she probably always will be.”
I don’t know what I expected him to say but the equivalent of “too bad” isn’t what I wanted to hear. “Okay.” I should be happy that he basically told everyone we are dating now, but the whole thing felt so off.
“I’m going to go,” I tell him.
“Then I’m coming with you.”
“You sure you want to leave your friends?” I snap.
He rolls his eyes and follows me to my car. I try to hide my smile as we get in the car. At least I know he would rather be with me than Molly.
“So how long were you there before I arrived?” Hardin asks as I pull out of the parking lot.
“About twenty minutes.”
“Oh. You didn’t meet Zed there, did you?”
“No. It was the last place open to eat I could find. I had no idea he was there—or that you would show up. You know, because you never texted me.”
“Oh,” he says and pauses for a beat. But then he looks over at me again. “So what did you guys talk about?”
“Nothing; he was only at the table for a few minutes before you got there. Why?”
“I’m just wondering.” His fingers drum on his knee. “I missed you today.”
“I missed you, too,” I say as we pull onto campus. “I got a lot of homework done and I prepared everything for my first day at Vance.”
“Do you want me to drive you tomorrow?”
“No, that’s why I got my own car, remember?” I laugh.
“Still, I could drive you,” he offers as we get to my dorm and head inside.
“No, it’s fine. I will drive myself. Thank you, though.”
Just as I am about to ask him what he did all day—why he hadn’t texted me if he missed me so much—my breath gets locked in my throat and panic takes over.
My mother is standing in front of my door with her arms crossed and a deep scowl on her face.
Chapter seventy-four
Hardin’s eyes follow mine and widen as he sees her. He reaches for my hand, but I pull away and step out in front of him. “Hi, Moth—”
“What the hell are you thinking!” she yells as we approach.
I want to shrink and disappear.
“I . . . what?” I don’t know what she knows yet, so I stay quiet. In her anger, her blond hair looks brighter, more angled toward her perfectly drawn-on face.
“What are you thinking, Theresa! Noah has been avoiding me for the last two weeks, and I finally ran into Mrs. Porter at the grocery—and you know what she told me? That you two have broken up! Why wouldn’t you tell me? I had to find out in the most humiliating way!” she shouts.
“It’s not that big a deal, Mother. We broke up,” I say and she gasps. Hardin stays behind me, but I feel his hand go to the small of my back.
“Not that big a deal? How dare you—you and Noah have been together for years. He is good for you, Tessa. He has a future, and comes from a great family!” She pauses to catch her breath a moment, but I don’t interrupt, knowing there’s more to come. She straightens up and says as calmly as she can, “Luckily, I have just spoken to him and he has agreed to take you back, despite your promiscuous behavior.”
Anger flares inside me. “How dare I? If I don’t want to date him, I don’t have to. What does it matter what type of family he comes from? If I wasn’t happy with him, that is what should matter. How dare you talk to him about this—I am an adult!”
I push past her to open the door. Hardin follows close behind me and my mother storms in after.
“You have no idea how ridiculous you sound! And then you show up here with . . . this . . . this . . . punk! Look at him, Tessa! Is this your way of rebelling against me? Have I done something to make you hate me?”
Hardin is standing by my dresser with his jaw clenched and hands shoved deep in his pockets. If only she knew that Hardin’s father is the chancellor at WCU and has even more money than Noah’s family. But I won’t tell her that, because that has nothing to do with it.
“This isn’t about you! Why do you have to make everything about you!” My tears are fighting to break free, but I refuse to let her get the best of me. I hate that when I am angry I cry; it makes me seem weak, but I can’t help it.
“You’re right, it isn’t about me—it’s about your future! You have to think of the future, not just how you’re feeling now. I know he seems fun and dangerous, but there is no future here!” She gestures to Hardin. “Not with him . . . this freak!”
Before I realize what I am doing, I am in my mother’s face and Hardin has stepped forward, grabbing me by the elbows to pull me away from her. “Do not talk about him like that!” I scream.
My mother’s eyes are wide and red-rimmed. “Who are you? My daughter would never speak to me this way! She would never jeopardize her future or be so disrespectful!”
I begin to feel guilty, but that’s exactly what she wants, and I have to fight through it to defend what I want. “I am not jeopardizing my future! My future isn’t even in question here, I’ll have a four-point-oh, and I have a great internship starting tomorrow! You are beyond selfish to come here and try to make me feel bad for being happy. He makes me happy, Mother, and if you can’t accept that, then you should go.”
“Excuse me?” She huffs, but in truth I’m as surprised by what I just said as she is. “You will regret this, Theresa! I am disgusted to even look at you!”
The room starts spinning. I was not prepared to go to war with my mother, not today at least. I knew it would be a matter of time before she found out, but she wasn’t even on my radar for today.
“I knew something was going on from the first time I saw him in your room. I just didn’t think you would be so quick to open your legs for him!”
Hardin steps between us. “You’re taking this too far,” he warns her with dark eyes. I think Hardin may be the only person who could actually give my mother a run for her money.
“You stay out of this!” she snaps, crossing her arms once again. “If you continue to see him, I will no longer speak to you, and you surely can’t pay for college on your own. This dorm alone costs me thousands!” she shrieks.
I’m astounded that my mother would go there. “You’re threatening my education because you don’t approve of who I am in love with?”
“In love with?” she scoffs. “Oh Theresa, my naïve Theresa, you have no idea what love is.” She laughs, making a sound that is more like a sickening cackle. “And you think he loves you?”
“I do love her,” Hardin interrupts.
“Sure you do!” Her head falls back.
“Mother.”
“Theresa, I’m warning you: If you don’t stop seeing him, there will be consequences. I’m leaving now, but I expect a call after you clear your head.” She storms out of my room, and I go into the doorway to watch her as she stomps away, her heels clunking and echoing down the hall.
“I am so sorry.” I turn to Hardin.
“You have nothing to apologize for.” He takes my face in his hands. “I am proud of the way you stood up for yourself.” He kisses my nose. I look around the room and wonder just how everything came to this. I lean into Hardin’s chest and he reaches around me, rubbing the tense muscles on my neck.
“I can’t believe her, I can’t believe she would act like that and threaten not to help pay for my college. She doesn’t pay for all of it—I have a partial scholarship and some student loans. She only pays twenty percent; the biggest thing is the dorms. But what if she really stops paying for them? I will have to find a job on top of the internship,” I sob. His hand moves to the back of my head and gently guides my head down to cry on his chest.
“Shh . . . Shh . . . It’s okay, we will figure it out. You can move in with me,” he says. I laugh and wipe my eyes, but he goes on, “Really, you could. Or we could get an apartment off campus. I have enough money.”
I look up at him. “You can’t be serious.”
“I am.”
“We can’t move in together.” I laugh and sniffle.
“Why not?”
“Because we have only known each other for a few months, and most of that time was spent fighting,” I remind him.
“So, we have done a pretty good job getting along this weekend.” He smiles and we both burst into laughter.
“You’re insane. I am not moving in with you,” I tell him and he hugs me again.