“What happened?”
The rest of us looked at each other. Wade looked completely lost. He stared at the room, at the bat, and then at Lissa and me. “I don’t know…I can’t…” He turned his full attention to me and suddenly grew angry. “What the – it was you! You wouldn’t let the feeder thing go.”
The dorm workers looked at me questioningly, and in a few seconds, I made up my mind.
You have to protect her. The more she uses it, the worse it’ll get. Stop her, Rose. Stop her before they notice, before they notice and take her away too. Get her out of here.
I could see Ms. Karp’s face in my mind, pleading frantically. I gave Wade a haughty look, knowing full well no one would question a confession I made or even suspect Lissa.
“Yeah, well, if you’d let her go,” I told him, “I wouldn’t have had to do this.”
Save her. Save her from herself.
After that night, I never drank again. I refused to let my guard down around Lissa. And two days later, while I was supposed to be suspended for “destruction of property,” I took Lissa and broke out of the Academy.
Back in Lissa’s room, with Xander’s arm around me and her angry and upset eyes on us, I didn’t know if she’d do anything drastic again. But the situation reminded me too much of that one from two years ago, and I knew I had to defuse it.
“Just a little blood,” Xander was saying. “I won’t take much. I just want to see what dhampir tastes like. Nobody here cares.”
“Xander,” growled Lissa, “leave her alone.”
I slipped out from under his arm and smiled, looking for a funny retort rather than one that might start a fight. “Come on,” I teased. “I had to hit the last guy who asked me that, and you’re a hell of a lot prettier than Jesse. It’d be a waste.”
“Pretty?” he asked. “I’m stunningly sexy but not pretty.”
Carly laughed. “No, you’re pretty. Todd told me you buy some kind of French hair gel.”
Xander, distracted as so many drunk people easily are, turned around to defend his honor, forgetting me. The tension disappeared, and he took the teasing about his hair with a good attitude.
Across the room, Lissa met my eyes with relief. She smiled and gave me a small nod of thanks before she returned her attention to Aaron.
SIXTEEN
THE NEXT DAY, IT FULLY hit me how much things had changed since the Jesse-and-Ralf rumors first started. For some people, I remained a nonstop source of whispers and laughter. From Lissa’s converts, I received friendliness and occasional defense. Overall, I realized, our classmates actually gave me very little of their attention anymore. This became especially true when something new distracted everyone.
Lissa and Aaron.
Apparently, Mia had found about the party and had blown up when she learned that Aaron had been there without her. She’d bitched at him and told him that if he wanted to be with her, he couldn’t run around and hang out with Lissa. So Aaron had decided he didn’t want to be with her. He’d broken up with her that morning…and moved on.
Now he and Lissa were all over each other. They stood around in the hall and at lunch, arms wrapped around one another, laughing and talking. Lissa’s bond feelings showed only mild interest, despite her gazing at him as though he was the most fascinating thing on the planet. Most of this was for show, unbeknownst to him. He looked as though he could have built a shrine at her feet at any moment.
And me? I felt ill.
My feelings were nothing, however, compared to Mia’s. At lunch, she sat on the far side of the room from us, eyes fixed pointedly ahead, ignoring the consolations of the friends near her. She had blotchy pink patches on her pale, round cheeks, and her eyes were red-rimmed. She said nothing mean when I walked past. No smug jokes. No mocking glares. Lissa had destroyed her, just as Mia had vowed to do us.
The only person more miserable than Mia was Christian. Unlike her, he had no qualms about studying the happy couple while wearing an open look of hatred on his face. As usual, no one except me even noticed.
After watching Lissa and Aaron make out for the tenth time, I left lunch early and went to see Ms. Carmack, the teacher who taught elemental basics. I’d been wanting to ask her something for a while.
“Rose, right?” She seemed surprised to see me but not angry or annoyed like half the other teachers did lately.
“Yeah. I have a question about, um, magic.”
She raised an eyebrow. Novices didn’t take magic classes. “Sure. What do you want to know?”
“I was listening to the priest talk about St. Vladimir the other day…Do you know what element he specialized in? Vladimir, I mean. Not the priest.”
She frowned. “Odd. As famous as he is around here, I’m surprised it never comes up. I’m no expert, but in all the stories I’ve heard, he never did anything that I’d say connects to any one of the elements. Either that or no one ever recorded it.”
“What about his healings?” I pushed further. “Is there an element that lets you perform those?”
“No, not that I know of.” Her lips quirked into a small smile. “People of faith would say he healed through the power of God, not any sort of elemental magic. After all, one thing the stories are certain about is that he was ¡®full of spirit.’ “
“Is it possible he didn’t specialize?”
Her smile faded. “Rose, is this really about St. Vladimir? Or is it about Lissa?”
“Not exactly…” I stammered.
“I know it’s hard on her – especially in front of all her classmates – but she has to be patient,” she explained gently. “It will happen. It always happens.”
“But sometimes it doesn’t.”
“Rarely. But I don’t think she’ll be one of those. She’s got a higher-than-average aptitude in all four, even if she hasn’t hit specialized levels. One of them will shoot up any day now.”
That gave me an idea. “Is it possible to specialize in more than one element?”
She laughed and shook her head. “No. Too much power. No one could handle all that magic, not without losing her mind.”
Oh. Great.
“Okay. Thanks.” I started to leave, then thought of something else. “Hey, do you remember Ms. Karp? What did she specialize in?”
Ms. Carmack got that uncomfortable look other teachers did whenever anyone mentioned Ms. Karp. “Actually – “
“What?”
“I almost forgot. I think she really was one of the rare ones who never specialized. She just always kept a very low control over all four.”
I spent the rest of my afternoon classes thinking about Ms. Carmack’s words, trying to work them into my unified Lissa-Karp-Vladimir theory. I also watched Lissa. So many people wanted to talk to her now that she barely noticed my silence. Every so often, though, I’d see her glance at me and smile, a tired look in her eyes. Laughing and gossiping all day with people she only sort of liked was taking its toll on her.
“The mission’s accomplished,” I told her after school. “We can stop Project Brainwash.”
We sat on benches in the courtyard, and she swung her legs back and forth. “What do you mean?”
“You’ve done it. You stopped people from making my life horrible. You destroyed Mia. You stole Aaron. Play with him for another couple weeks, then drop him and the other royals. You’ll be happier.”
“You don’t think I’m happy now?”
“I know you aren’t. Some of the parties are fun, but you hate pretending to be friends with people you don’t like – and you don’t like most of them. I know how much Xander pissed you off the other night.”
“He’s a jerk, but I can deal with that. If I stop hanging out with them, everything’ll go back to the way it was. Mia will just start up again. This way, she can’t bother us.”
“It’s not worth it if everything else is bothering you.”
“Nothing’s bothering me.” She sounded a little defensive.
“Yeah?” I asked meanly. “Because you’re so in love with Aaron? Because you can’t wait to have sex with him again?”
She glared at me. “Have I mentioned you can be a huge bitch sometimes?”
I ignored that. “I’m just saying you’ve got enough shit to worry about without all this. You’re burning yourself out with all the compulsion you’re using.”
“Rose!” She glanced anxiously around. “Be quiet!”
“But it’s true. Using it all the time is going to screw with your head. For real.”
“Don’t you think you’re getting carried away?”
“What about Ms. Karp?”
Lissa’s expression went very still. “What about her?”
“You. You’re just like her.”
“No, I’m not!” Outrage flashed in those green eyes.
“She healed too.”
Hearing me talk about this shocked her. This topic had weighed us down for so long, but we’d almost never spoken about it.
“That doesn’t mean anything.”
“You don’t think it does? Do you know anyone else who can do that? Or can use compulsion on dhampirs and Moroi?”
“She never used compulsion like that,” she argued.