Yrene knew it was not guilt alone that had her rising so early on Tehome’s Day.
He was from Adarlan—she doubted he’d care if he got the day off.
Dawn had barely broken by the time Yrene slipped into the Torre courtyard and paused.
The sun had crept over the compound walls, spearing a few shafts of golden light into the purplish shadows.
And in one of those shafts of sunlight, the faint strands of gold in his brown hair gleaming …
“She wakes,” Lord Chaol said.
Yrene strode for him, gravel crunching loudly in the drowsy dawn. “You rode here?”
“All by myself.”
She only arched a brow at the white mare beside his. “And you brought the other horse?”
“A gentleman through and through.”
She crossed her arms, frowning up at where he sat mounted. “Any further movement?”
The morning sun lit his eyes, turning the brown into near-gold. “How are you feeling?”
“Answer my question, please.”
“Answer mine.”
She gaped at him a bit. Debated scowling. “I’m fine,” she said, waving a hand. “But have you felt any further—”
“Did you get the rest you needed?”
Yrene gaped at him truly this time. “Yes.” She scowled now, too. “And it’s none of your concern—”
“It certainly is.”
He said it so calmly. With such male entitlement. “I know that in Adarlan, women bow to whatever men say, but here, if I say it’s none of your business, then it isn’t.”
Chaol gave her a half smile. “So we’re back to the animosity today.”
She reined in her rising shriek. “We are not back to anything. I’m your healer, and you are my patient, and I asked you about the status of your—”
“If you’re not rested,” he said, as if it were the most rational thing in the world, “then I’m not letting you near me.”
Yrene opened and closed her mouth. “And how will you decide that?”
Slowly, his eyes swept over her. Every inch.
Her heart thundered at the long look. The relentless focus. “Good color,” he said. “Good posture. Certainly good sass.”
“I’m not some prize horse, as you said yesterday.”
“Two days ago.”
She braced her hands on her hips. “I’m fine. Now, how are you?” Each word was accentuated.
Chaol’s eyes danced. “I’m feeling quite well, Yrene. Thank you for asking.”
Yrene. If she wasn’t inclined to leap onto his horse and strangle him, she might have contemplated how the way he said her name made her toes curl.
But she hissed, “Don’t mistake my kindness for stupidity. If you have had any progress, or regressions, I will find them out.”
“If this is your kindness, then I’d hate to see your bad side.”
She knew he meant the words in jest, yet … Her back stiffened.
He seemed to realize it, and leaned down in his saddle. “It was a joke, Yrene. You have been more generous than … It was a joke.”
She shrugged, heading for the white horse.
He said, perhaps an attempt to steer them back toward neutral ground, “How are the other healers faring—after the attack?”
A shiver crawled up her spine as she grabbed the mare’s reins, but made no move to mount. Yrene had offered to help with the burial, but Hafiza had refused, telling her to save her strength for Lord Westfall. But it hadn’t stopped her from visiting the death chamber beneath the Torre two days ago—from seeing the desiccated body laid out on the stone slab in the center of the rock-hewn chamber, the leathery, drained face, the bones that jutted out from paper-thin skin. She’d offered up a prayer to Silba before she’d left, and had not been awake yesterday when they’d buried her in the catacombs far beneath the tower.
Yrene now frowned up at the tower looming overhead, its presence always such a comfort, and yet … Since that night in the library, despite Hafiza’s and Eretia’s best efforts, there had been a hush in the halls, the tower itself. As if the light that had filled this place had guttered.
“They fight to retain a sense of normalcy,” Yrene said at last. “I think in defiance against … against whoever did it. Hafiza and Eretia have led by example, staying calm, focused—smiling when they can. I think it helps the other girls not to be so petrified.”
“If you want me to help with another lesson,” he offered, “my services are at your disposal.”
She nodded absently, running her thumb over the bridle.
Silence fell for a long moment, filled with the scent of swaying lavender and the potted lemon trees. Then—“Were you really planning on barging into my room at dawn?”
Yrene turned from the patient white mare. “You don’t seem the type to laze in bed.” She raised her brows. “Though, if you and Captain Faliq are engaging in—”
“You can come at dawn, if you wish.”
She nodded. Even though she usually loved sleeping. “I was going to check on a patient before I visited you. Since we tend to … lose time.” He didn’t reply, so she went on, “I can meet you back at the palace in two hours, if you—”
“I can go with you. I don’t mind.”
She dropped the reins. Surveyed him. His legs. “Before we go, I should like to do some exercises with you.”
“On the horse?”
Yrene strode to him, gravel hissing beneath her shoes. “It’s actually a successful form of treatment for many—not just those with spinal injuries. The movements of a horse during riding can improve sensory processing, among other benefits.” She unbuckled the brace and slid his foot from the stirrup. “When I was on the steppes last winter, I healed a young warrior who had fallen from his horse on a grueling hunt—the wound was nearly the same as yours. His tribe devised the brace for him before I got there, since he was even less inclined to remain indoors than you.”
Chaol snorted, running a hand through his hair.
Yrene lifted his foot and began to rotate it, mindful of the horse he sat atop. “Getting him to do any of the exercising—the therapy—was an ordeal. He hated being cooped up in his gir and wanted to feel the fresh air on his face. So, just to give myself a moment’s peace, I let him get into the saddle, ride a bit, and then we’d do the exercises while he was astride. Only in exchange for later doing more comprehensive exercises in the tent. But he made such progress while astride that it became a main part of our treatment.” Yrene gently bent and straightened his leg. “I know you can’t feel much beyond your toes—”
“Nothing.”
“—but I want you to focus on wriggling them. As much as you can. Along with the rest of your leg, but concentrate on your feet while I do this.”
He fell silent, and she didn’t bother to look up as she moved his leg, going through what exercises she could with the horse beneath him. The solid weight of his leg was enough to get her sweating, but she kept at it, stretching and bending, pivoting and rolling. And beneath his boots, the thick black leather shifting … his toes indeed wriggled and pushed.
“Good,” Yrene told him. “Keep at it.”
His toes strained against the leather again. “The steppes—that’s where the khagan’s people originally hailed from.”
She went through another full set of the exercises, making sure his toes were moving the entire time, before she answered. Setting his leg back within the brace and stirrup, giving the horse plenty of space as she went around its front and unbuckled his other leg, she said, “Yes. A beautiful, pristine land. The grassy hills roll on forever, interrupted only by sparse pine forests and a few bald mountains.” Yrene grunted against the weight of his leg as she began the same set of exercises. “Did you know that the first khagan conquered the continent with only a hundred thousand men? And that he did it in four years?” She took in the awakening city around them, marveling. “I knew about his people’s history, about the Darghan, but when I went to the steppes, Kashin told me—” She fell silent, wishing she could take back the last bit.
“The prince went with you?” A calm, casual question. She tapped his foot in silent order to keep wriggling his toes. Chaol obeyed with a huff of laughter.
“Kashin and Hafiza came with me. We were there over a month.” Yrene flexed his foot, up and down, working through the repetitive motions with slow, deliberate care. Magic aided in the healing, yes, but the physical element of it played equally as important a role. “Are you moving your toes as much as you can?”
A snort. “Yes, mistress.”
She hid her smile, stretching his leg as far as his hip would allow and rotating it in small circles.
“I assume that trip to the steppes was when Prince Kashin poured his heart out.”
Yrene nearly dropped his leg, but instead glared up at him, finding those rich brown eyes full of dry humor. “It is none of your business.”
“You do love to say that, for someone who seems so intent on demanding I tell her everything.”
She rolled her eyes and went back to bending his leg at the knee, stretching and easing. “Kashin was one of the first friends I made here,” she said after a long moment. “One of my first friends anywhere.”
“Ah.” A pause. “And when he wanted more than friendship …”
Yrene lowered Chaol’s leg at last, buckling it back into the brace and wiping the dust from his boots off her hands. She set her hands on her hips as she peered at him, squinting against the rising light. “I didn’t want more than that. I told him as much. And that is that.”
Chaol’s lips twitched toward a smile, and Yrene at last approached her waiting mare, hauling herself into the saddle. When she straightened, arranging the skirts of her dress over her legs, she said to him, “My aim is to return to Fenharrow, to help where I am needed most. I felt nothing strong enough for Kashin to warrant yielding that dream.”
Understanding filled his eyes, and he opened his mouth—as if he might say something about it. But he just nodded, smiling again, and said, “I’m glad you didn’t.” She lifted a brow in question, and his smile grew. “Where would I be without you here to bark orders at me?”
Yrene scowled, scooping up the reins and steering the horse toward the gates as she said sharply, “Let me know if you start to feel any discomfort or tingling in that saddle—and try to keep your toes moving as often as you can.”
To his credit, he didn’t object. He only said with that half smile, “Lead the way, Yrene Towers.”
And though she told herself not to … a little smile tugged on Yrene’s mouth as they rode into the awakening city.
20
With most of the city down by the docks for the sunrise ceremony to honor Tehome, the streets were quiet. Chaol supposed only the sickest would be bedbound today, which was why, when they approached a slender house on a sunny, dusty street, he wasn’t at all surprised to be greeted by violent coughing before they’d even reached the door.
Well, before Yrene had even reached the door. Without the chair, he’d remain atop the horse, but Yrene didn’t so much as comment on it as she dismounted, tied her mare to the hitching post down the street, and strode for the house. He kept shifting his toes every so often—as much as he could manage within the boots. The movement alone, he knew, was a gift, but it required more concentration than he’d expected; more energy, too.
Chaol was still flexing them when an elderly woman opened the house door, sighing to see Yrene and speaking in very slow Halha. For Yrene to understand, apparently, because the healer replied in the language as she entered the house and left the door ajar, her use of the words tentative and unwieldy. Better than his own.
From the street, he could see through the house’s open windows and door to the little bed tucked just under the painted sill—as if to keep the patient in the fresh air.
It was occupied by an old man—the source of that coughing.
Yrene spoke to the crone before striding to the old man, pulling up a squat, three-legged stool.
Chaol stroked his horse’s neck, wriggling his toes again, while Yrene took the man’s withered hand and pressed another to his brow.
Each movement was gentle, calm. And her face …
There was a soft smile on it. One he’d never seen before.
Yrene said something he couldn’t hear to the old woman wringing her hands behind them, then rolled down the thin blanket covering the man.
Chaol cringed at the lesions crusting his chest and stomach. Even the old woman did.
But Yrene didn’t so much as blink, her serene countenance never shifting as she lifted a hand before her. White light simmered along her fingers and palm.
The old man, though unconscious, sucked in a breath as she laid a hand on his chest. Right over the worst of those sores.
For long minutes, she only laid her hand there, brows scrunched, light flowing from her palm to the man’s chest.
And when she lifted her hand … the old woman wept. Kissed Yrene’s hands, one after the other. Yrene only smiled, kissing the woman’s sagging cheek, and bade her farewell, giving what had to be firm instructions for the man’s continued care.
It was only after Yrene shut the door behind her that the beautiful smile faded. That she studied the dusty cobblestones and her mouth tightened. As if she’d forgotten he was there.
His horse nickered, and her head snapped up.
“Are you all right?” he asked.
She only unhitched her horse and mounted, chewing on her lower lip as they started into a slow walk. “He has a disease that will not go gently. We have been battling it for five months now. That it flared up so badly this time …” She shook her head—disappointed. With herself.
“It doesn’t have a cure?”
“It has been defeated in other patients, but sometimes the host … He is very old. And even when I think I’ve purged it from him, it comes back.” She blew out a breath. “At this point, I feel as if I’m just buying him time, not giving him a solution.”
He studied the tightness in her jaw. Someone who demanded excellence from herself—while perhaps not expecting the same from others. Or even hoping for it.
Chaol found himself saying, “Are there any other patients you need to see to?”
She frowned toward his legs. Toward the big toe he pushed against the top of his boot, the leather shifting with the movement. “We can return to the palace—”
“I like to be outside,” he blurted. “The streets are empty. Let me …” He couldn’t finish.
Yrene seemed to get it, though. “There’s a young mother across the city.” A long, long ride away. “She’s recovering from a hard labor two weeks ago. I’d like to visit her.”
Chaol tried not to look too relieved. “Then let’s go.”
So they went. The streets remained empty, the ceremony, Yrene told him, lasting until midmorning. Even though the empire’s gods had been cobbled together, most people participated in their holidays.
Religious tolerance, she’d said, was something the very first khagan had championed—and all who had come after him, too. Oppressing various beliefs only led to discord within his empire, so he’d absorbed them all. Some literally, twining multiple gods into one. But always allowing those who wished to practice the freedom to do so without fear.
Chaol, in turn, told Yrene about the other use he’d learned while reading up on the history of the khagan rule: in other kingdoms, where religious minorities were ill-treated, he found many willing spies.
She’d known that already—and had asked him if he’d ever used spies for his own … position.