I sat down on the edge of the bed. “What now?’ “Now we wait,’ he said.
“For what?’
“For Lissa and the others to clear your name and find out who killed the queen.’
I expected more explanation, but all I got was silence. Disbelief began to build up in me. I’d remained as patient as I could tonight, always assuming Dimitri was leading me toward some mysterious mission to help solve the murder. When he said we were going to wait, surely he didn’t mean we were just going to … well, wait?
“What are we going to do?’ I demanded. “How are we going to help them?’
“We told you earlier: You can hardly go looking for clues at Court. You need to stay away. You need to stay safe.’
My jaw dropped as I gestured around the drab room. “What, and this is it? This is where you’re stashing me? I thought … I thought there was something here. Something to help.’
“It is helping,’ he said, in that damnably calm way of his. “Sydney and Abe researched this place and decided it was out of the way enough to avoid detection.’
I shot up from the bed. “Okay, comrade. There’s one serious problem here with your logic. You guys keep acting like me staying out of the way is helping.’
“Whats a serious problem is us repeating this conversation over and over. The answers to who murdered Tatiana are at Court, and that’s where your friends are. They’ll figure this out.’
“I didn’t just get in a high-speed chase and jump state lines to hole up in some crappy motel! How long are you planning on “staying out of the way’ here?’
Dimitri crossed his arms over his chest. “As long as it takes. We have the funds to stay here indefinitely.’
“I probably have enough spare change in my pocket to stay here indefinitely! But it’s not happening. I have to do something. I won’t just take the easy way out and sit around.’
“Surviving isn’t as easy as you think.’
“Oh God,’ I groaned. “You’ve been hanging out with Abe, haven’t you? You know, when you were a Strigoi, you told me to stay away from him. Maybe you should take your own advice.’
I regretted the words as soon as they left my lips and saw in his eyes that I’d inflicted serious damage. He might have been acting like the old Dimitri in this escape, but his time as a Strigoi still tormented him.
“I’m sorry,’ I said. “I didn’t mean–‘
“We’re done discussing this,’ he said harshly. “Lissa says we’re staying here, so we’re staying here.’
Anger shoved aside my guilt. “Thats why you’re doing this? Because Lissa told you to?’
“Of course. I swore I’d serve and help her.’
That was when I snapped. It had been bad enough that when Lissa restored him to a dhampir, Dimitri had thought it was okay to stick around Lissa while spurning me. Despite the fact that I’d been the one who went to Siberia and that I was the one who learned about how Victor’s brother Robert knew how to restore Strigoi … well, apparently those things didn’t matter. Only Lissa wielding the stake had seemed to matter, and Dimitri now held her up as some kind of angelic goddess, one he’d made an archaic, knight-like vow to serve.
“Forget it,’ I said. “I am not staying here.’
I made it to the door in three steps and managed to undo the chain, but in seconds, Dimitri was out of his chair and had thrown me against the wall. Really, that was pretty slow reaction time. I would have expected him to stop me before I’d taken two steps.
“You are staying here,’ he said evenly, hands gripping my wrists. “Whether you like it or not.’
Now, I had a few options. I could stay, of course. I could hang out for days–months, even–in this motel until Lissa cleared my name. That was presuming Lissa could clear my name and that I didn’t get food poisoning from the DINER diner. This was the safest option. Also the most boring for me.
Another option was to fight my way through Dimitri. That was neither safe nor easy. It would also be particularly challenging because I’d have to try to fight in such a way that would allow me to escape but wouldn’t kill him or cause either of us serious injury.
Or, I could just throw caution away and not hold back. Hell, the guy had battled Strigoi and half the Court’s guardians. He could handle me giving everything I had. We’d certainly shared some pretty rough encounters back at St. Vladimir’s. Would my best be enough for me to escape? Time to find out.
I kneed him in the stomach, which he clearly hadn’t expected. His eyes widened in shock–and a little pain–providing me with an opening to break free of his grip. That opening was only long enough for me to yank out the door’s bolt. Before I could reach for the knob, Dimitri had a hold of me again. He gripped me hard and threw me onto the bed stomach first, both pinning me with his weight and preventing my limbs from doing any more surprise kicking. This was always my biggest problem in fights: opponents– usually men–with more strength and weight. My speed was my greatest asset in those situations, but being held down made dodging and evasion a non-option. Still, every part of me struggled, making it difficult for him to keep me down.
“Stop this,’ he said in my ear, his lips nearly touching it. “Be reasonable for once. You can’t get past me.’
His body was warm and strong against mine, and I promised my own body a stern scolding later. Quit it, I thought. Focus on getting out of here, not how he feels.
“I’m not the one being unreasonable,’ I growled, trying to turn my face toward him. “You’re the one caught up in some noble promise that makes no sense. And I know you don’t like to sit out of the action any more than I do. Help me. Help me find the murderer and do something useful.’ I stopped struggling and pretended our argument had distracted me.
“I don’t like sitting around, but I also don’t like rushing into an impossible situation!’
“Impossible situations are our specialty,’ I pointed out. Meanwhile, I tried to assess his hold on me. He hadn’t relaxed his grip, but I hoped maybe the conversation was distracting him. Normally, Dimitri was too good to lose his focus. But I knew he was tired. And maybe, just maybe, he might be a little careless since it was me and not a Strigoi.
Nope. I lashed out abruptly, trying to break away and scramble out from under him. The best I managed to do was roll myself over before he had a hold of me again, now leaving me back-down on the bed. Being so close to him … his face, his lips … the warmth of his skin on mine. Well. It appeared that all I’d accomplished was putting myself at a greater disadvantage. He certainly didn’t seem to be affected by our bodies’ closeness. He wore that typical steel resolve of his, and even though it was stupid of me, even though I knew I shouldn’t care anymore that he was over me … well, I did care.
“One day,’ he said. “You can’t even wait one day?’
“Maybe if we’d gone to a nicer hotel. With cable.’
“This is no time for jokes, Rose.’
“Then let me do something. Anything.’
“I. Can’t.’
Saying the words obviously pained him, and I realized something. I was so mad at him, so furious that he’d try to make me sit around and play it safe. But he didn’t like any of this either. How could I have forgotten how alike we were? We both craved action. We both wanted to be useful, to help those we cared about. It was only his self- resolve to help Lissa that was keeping him here with this babysitting job. He claimed me rushing back to Court was reckless, but I had a feeling that if he hadn’t been the one in charge of me–or, well, thought he was–he would have run right back there too.
I studied him, the determined dark eyes and expression softened by the brown hair that had escaped its ponytail holder. It hung around his face now, just barely touching mine. I could try to break free again but was losing hope of that working. He was too fierce and too set on keeping me safe. I suspected pointing out my suspicion that he wanted to go back to Court too wouldn’t do any good. True or not, he would be expecting me to argue with Rose-logic. He was Dimitri, after all. He would be expecting everything.
Well, almost.
An idea hit me so fast that I didn’t pause to analyze it. I just acted. My body might be constrained, but my head and neck had just enough freedom to shift up–and kiss him.
My lips met his, and I learned a few things. One was that it was possible to catch him totally by surprise. His body froze and locked up, shocked at the sudden turn of events. I also realized that he was just as good a kisser as I recalled. The last time we’d kissed had been when he was Strigoi. There had been an eerie sexiness to that, but it didn’t compare to the heat and energy of being alive. His lips were just like I remembered from our time at St. Vladimir’s, both soft and hungry at the same time. Electricity spread through the rest of my body as he kissed me back. It was both comforting and exhilarating.
And that was the third thing I discovered. He was kissing me back. Maybe, just maybe, Dimitri wasn’t as resolved as he claimed to be. Maybe under all that guilt and certainty that he couldn’t love again, he still wanted me. I would have liked to have found out. But I didn’t have the time.
Instead, I punched him.
It’s true: I’ve punched lots of guys who were kissing me but never one I actually wanted to keep kissing. Dimitri still had a solid hold on me, but the shock of the kiss had dropped his guard. My fist broke out and connected with the side of his face. Without missing a beat, I shoved him off me as hard as I could and leapt away from the bed and toward the door. I heard him scramble to his feet as I threw it open. I shot out of the room and slammed the door shut before I could see what he did next. Not that I needed to. He was coming after me.
Without a moment’s hesitation, I shoved the abandoned cleaning cart in front of the room’s door and sprinted off down the hall. A couple seconds later, the door opened, and I heard a cry of annoyance–as well as a very, very bad word in Russian–as he ran into the cart. It would only take him a few moments to push it aside, but that was all I needed. I was down the flight of stairs in a flash and into the meager lobby where a bored desk clerk was reading a book. He nearly jumped out of his chair when I came tearing through.
“There’s a guy chasing me!’ I called as I headed out the door.
The clerk didn’t really look like anyone who would try to stop Dimitri, and I had a feeling Dimitri wouldn’t stop anyway if the guy asked him to. In the most extreme case, the man would call the police. In this town, the POLICE probably consisted of one guy and a dog.
Regardless, it was no longer my concern. I had escaped the motel and was now in the middle of a sleepy mountain town, its streets cast in shadows. Dimitri might be right behind me, but as I plunged into some woods nearby, I knew it was going to be easy for me to lose him in the darkness.
THE PROBLEM WAS, OF COURSE, that I soon lost myself in the darkness.
After living in the wilds of Montana, I was used to how completely the night could swallow you once you stepped away from even the tiniest hint of civilization. I was even used to wandering the twists and turns of dark forests. But the St. Vladimir’s terrain had been familiar. The woods of West Virginia were new and foreign, and I had completely lost my bearings.
Once I was pretty sure I’d put enough distance between me and the motel, I paused and looked around. Night insects hummed and sang, and the oppressive summer humidity hung around me. Peering up through the leafy canopy of trees, I could see a brilliant sky of stars, totally untouched by city lights. Feeling like a true wilderness survivor, I studied the stars until I spotted the Big Dipper and figured out which direction was north. The mountains Sydney had driven us through had been to the east, so I certainly didn’t want to go in that direction. It seemed reasonable that if I hiked north, I’d eventually hit an interstate and either hitchhike or walk my way back to civilization. It wasn’t an airtight plan, but it wasn’t the worst one I’d ever had, not by a long shot.
I wasn’t really dressed for hiking, but as my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I managed to avoid most trees and other obstacles. Following the tiny road out of town would have been easier–but was also what Dimitri would expect me to do.
I fell into a steady, subconscious rhythm as I made my way north. I decided it was a good time to check in on Lissa, now that I had time on my hands and no guardians trying to arrest me. I slipped into her mind and found her within the depths of the guardians’ headquarters, sitting in a hallway lined with chairs. Other Moroi sat nearby, including Christian and Tasha.
“They’ll question you hard,’ Tasha murmured. “Especially you.’ That was to Christian. “You’d be my first choice if something illicitly blew up.’ That seemed to be everyone’s opinion. From the troubled look on her face, I could see Tasha had been as surprised by my escape as I had. Even if my friends hadn’t filled her in on the whole story yet, she had probably pieced most things together–at the very least, who was behind it.
Christian gave her as charming a smile as he could manage, like a kid trying to dodge being grounded. “They’ll know by now that it wasn’t caused by magic,’ he said. “The guardians will have scoured every inch of those statues.’ He didn’t elaborate, not in public, but Lissa’s mind was working along the same lines as his. The guardians would know now the explosion hadn’t been elemental. And even if my friends were the primary suspects, the authorities would have to wonder–just as I had–how teenagers would get a hold of C4.
Lissa nodded her agreement and rested her hand on Christian’s. “We’ll be okay.’
Her thoughts turned to both Dimitri and me, wondering if we’d made it out according to the plan. She couldn’t focus on finding Tatiana’s killer until she knew we were safe. Like me, the breakout had been a hard choice: freeing me put me in more danger than keeping me locked up. Her emotions were keyed up, prickly and a bit wilder than I would have liked. So much spirit, I realized. She’s using too much. Back at school, she’d managed it with prescription medication and later through self-control. But somewhere, as our situations grew increasingly complicated, she’d allowed herself to wield more and more. Recently, she’d used astonishing amounts, and we’d come to take it for granted. Sooner or later, Lissa’s reliance on spirit would catch up with her. With us.
“Princess?’ A door across from Lissa opened, and a guardian peered out. “We’re ready for you.’
The guardian stepped aside, and inside the room, Lissa heard a familiar voice say, “Always a pleasure speaking with you, Hans. We should do it again sometime.’ Abe then appeared, strutting out with his usual swagger. He stepped past the guardian in the doorway and gave Lissa and the Ozeras a winning, all-is-right-in-the-world grin. Without a word, he strode past them toward the hall’s exit.
Lissa almost smiled but reined it in, putting on a sober look as she and her companions entered. The door shut behind them, and she found herself facing three guardians seated at a table. One of them I’d seen around but had never met. I think his last name was Steele. The other two I knew well. One was Hans Croft, who ran the guardians’ operations at Court. Beside him–to my astonishment–was Alberta, who was in charge of St. Vladimir’s guardians and novices.
“Lovely,’ growled Hans. “A whole entourage.’ Christian had insisted on being present when Lissa was questioned, and Tasha had insisted on being present with Christian. If Abe had known the interrogation time, he probably would have joined the group too, undoubtedly followed by my mother … Hans didn’t realize he’d dodged a house party.
Lissa, Christian, and Tasha sat down opposite the guardians. “Guardian Petrov,’ said Lissa, ignoring Hans’s disapproval. “What are you doing here?’ Alberta gave Lissa a small smile but otherwise kept in professional guardian mode. “I was here for the funeral, and Guardian Croft decided he’d like an outside opinion for the investigation.’
“As well as someone familiar with Hathaway and her, uh, associates,’ added Hans. Hans was the kind of guy who got straight to the point. Usually, his attitude bothered me–that was my normal reaction to most authority figures–but I did respect the way he ran operations here. “This meeting was intended just for you, princess.’
“We won’t say a word,’ said Christian.
Lissa nodded and kept her face smooth and polite, even though there was a trembling in her voice. “I want to help … I’ve been so, I don’t know. I’m so stunned about everything that’s happened.’
“I’m sure,’ said Hans, voice dry. “Where were you when the statues exploded?’
“With the funeral procession,’ she said. “I was part of the escort.’
Steele had a pile of papers in front of him. “That’s true. There are plenty of witnesses.’
“Very convenient. What about afterward?’ asked Hans. “Where did you go when the crowd panicked?’
“Back to the Council’s building. That’s where all the others were meeting up, and I thought it’d be safest.’ I couldn’t see her face but could feel her trying to look cowed. “I was afraid when things started going crazy.’
“We also have witnesses to support that,’ said Steele.
Hans drummed his fingers on the table. “Did you have any prior knowledge about any of this? The explosions? Hathaway’s breakout?’
Lissa shook her head. “No! I had no clue. I didn’t even know it was possible to get out of the cells. I thought there was too much security.’
Hans ignored the dig on his operations. “You’ve got that bond thing, right? You didn’t pick up anything through that?’
“I don’t read her,’ explained Lissa. “She sees my thoughts but not the other way around.’
“That,’ said Alberta, speaking up at last, “is true.’
Hans didn’t contradict her but still wasn’t buying my friends’ innocence. “You realize, if you’re caught concealing information–or aiding her–you’ll face consequences almost as serious as hers. All of you. Royalty doesn’t exempt you from treason.’
Lissa lowered her gaze, as though his threat had frightened her. “I just can’t believe … I just can’t believe she’d do this. She was my friend. I thought I knew her. I didn’t think she could do any of these things … I never thought she’d murder anyone.’ If not for the feelings in the bond, I might have taken offense. I knew the truth, though. She was acting, trying to distance herself from me. It was smart.
“Really? Because not long ago, you were swearing up and down that she was innocent,’ pointed out Hans.
Lissa looked back up and widened her eyes. “I thought she was! But then … then I heard about what she did to those guardians in the escape …’ Her distress wasn’t entirely faked this time. She still needed to act like she thought I was guilty, but the news of Meredith’s condition had reached her–which truly had shocked her. That made two of us, but at least I now knew Meredith was okay. Hans still looked skeptical at Lissa’s change of heart but let it go. “What about Belikov? You swore he wasn’t a Strigoi anymore, but obviously something went wrong there as well.’
Christian stirred beside Lissa. As an advocate for Dimitri, Christian grew as irritated as us at the suspicions and accusations. Lissa spoke before Christian could say anything.
“He’s not Strigoi!’ Lissa’s remorse over me vanished, her old, fierce defense of Dimitri kicking in. She hadn’t expected this line of questioning about him. She’d been preparing herself to defend me and her alibi. Hans seemed pleased at the reaction and watched her closely.
“Then how do you explain his involvement?’
“It wasn’t because he was Strigoi,’ said Lissa, forcing her control back. Her heart was pounding rapidly. “He changed back. There’s no Strigoi left.’
“But he attacked a number of guardians–on more than one occasion.’
It looked like Tasha wanted to interrupt now and defend Dimitri as well, but she visibly bit her lip. It was remarkable. The Ozeras liked to speak their minds, not always tactfully.
“It wasn’t because he was Strigoi,’ Lissa repeated. “And he didn’t kill any of those guardians. Not one. Rose did what she did … well, I don’t know why. She hated Tatiana, I guess. Everyone knew that. But Dimitri … I’m telling you, being Strigoi had nothing to do with this. He helped her because he used to be her teacher. He thought she was in trouble.’
“That was pretty extreme for a teacher, particularly one who–before turning Strigoi– was known for being level-headed and rational.’
“Yeah, but he wasn’t thinking rationally because–‘
Lissa cut herself off, suddenly caught in a bad situation. Hans seemed to have realized quickly in this conversation that if Lissa was involved with recent events–and I don’t think he was certain yet–she would have an airtight alibi. Talking to her, however, had given him the chance to pursue another puzzle in my escape: Dimitri’s involvement. Dimitri had sacrificed himself to take the fall, even if it meant others not trusting him again. Lissa thought she’d made people think his actions were a former teacher’s protective instinct, but apparently, not everyone was buying that.
“He wasn’t thinking rationally because?’ prompted Hans, eyes sharp. Before the murder, Hans had believed Dimitri truly had become a dhampir again. Something told me he still believed that but sensed there was something big dangling before him.
Lissa stayed silent. She didn’t want people thinking Dimitri was Strigoi. She wanted people to believe in her powers to restore the undead. But if Dimitri helping a student didn’t seem convincing enough to others, all that mistrust might surface again.
Glancing at her interrogators, Lissa suddenly met Alberta’s eyes. The older guardian said nothing. She wore that neutral, scrutinizing expression that guardians excelled at. She also had an air of wisdom about her, and Lissa briefly allowed spirit to show her Alberta’s aura. It had good, steady colors and energy, and in Alberta’s eyes, Lissa swore she could see a message, a knowing glint.
Tell them, the message seemed to say. It’ll create problems–but they won’t be as bad as your current ones. Lissa held that gaze, wondering if she was just projecting her own thoughts onto Alberta. It didn’t matter who’d come up with the idea. Lissa knew it was right.
“Dimitri helped Rose because … because they were involved.’
As I’d guessed, Alberta wasn’t surprised, and she seemed relieved to have the truth out there. Hans and Steele, however, were very surprised. I had only seen Hans shocked a few times.
“When you say “involved,’ do you mean …’ He paused to structure his words. “Do you mean romantically involved?’
Lissa nodded, feeling horrible. She’d revealed a big secret here, one she’d sworn she’d keep for me, but I didn’t blame her. Not in this situation. Love–I hoped–would defend Dimitri’s actions.
“He loved her,’ said Lissa. “She loved him. If he helped her escape–‘
“He did help her escape,’ interrupted Hans. “He attacked guardians and blew up priceless, centuries-old statues brought over from Europe!’
Lissa shrugged. “Well, like I said. He wasn’t acting rationally. He wanted to help her and probably thought she was innocent. He would have done anything for her–and it had nothing to do with Strigoi.’
“Love only justifies so much.’ Hans clearly wasn’t a romantic.
“Shes underage!’ exclaimed Steele. That part hadn’t escaped him.
“She’s eighteen,’ corrected Lissa.
Hans cut her a look. “I can do the math, princess. Unless they managed some beautiful, touching romance in the last few weeks–while he was mostly in isolation– then there were things going on at your school that someone should have reported.’
Lissa said nothing, but from the corner of her eye, she could see Tasha and Christian. They were trying to keep their expressions neutral, but it was obvious this news wasn’t a surprise to them, no doubt confirming Hans’s suspicions that illicit things had been going on. I actually hadn’t realized Tasha knew about Dimitri and me and felt a little bad. Had she known that part of his rejection of her had been because of me? And if she knew, how many others did? Christian had probably tipped her off, but something told me more people were probably starting to find out as well. After the school’s attack, my reaction had likely been a big clue about my feelings for Dimitri. Maybe telling Hans now wasn’t so big a deal after all. The secret wouldn’t be a secret much longer.
Alberta cleared her throat, speaking up at last. “I think we have more important things to worry about right now than some romance that may or may not have happened.’
Steele gave her an incredulous look and slammed his hand against the table. “This is pretty serious. Did you know about it?’
“All I know is that we’re getting distracted from the point here,’ she replied, neatly dodging the question. Alberta was about twenty years older than Steele, and the tough look she gave him said that he was a child wasting her time. “I thought we were here to figure out if Miss Hathaway had any accomplices, not dredge up the past. So far, the only person we can say for sure that helped her is Belikov, and he did it out of irrational affection. That makes him a fugitive and a fool, not a Strigoi.’
I’d never thought of my relationship with Dimitri as “irrational affection,’ but Alberta’s point was taken. Something in Hans’s and Steele’s faces made me think soon the whole world would know about us, but that was nothing compared to murder. And if it cleared Dimitri of being a Strigoi, then it meant he’d be imprisoned instead of staked if ever captured. Small blessings.
Lissa’s questioning continued a bit longer before the guardians decided she was free and clear of any part in my escape (that they could prove). She did a good job playing surprised and confused the whole time, even mustering a few tears over how she could have so misjudged me. She spun a little bit of compulsion into her act too–not enough to brainwash anyone, but enough that Steele’s earlier outrage transformed to sympathy. Hans was harder to read, but as my group left, he reminded Tasha and Christian that he would be speaking with each of them later, preferably without an entourage.