“I thought you were taking your Qualifier…” Lissa’s words trailed off.
“I was supposed to,” I said. “It was just a wrong-place-and-wrong-time kind of thing. The guardian who was going to give me the test lived there. Dimitri and I walked in, and…”
I couldn’t finish. Images of the blood and death that had filled the Badica house flashed through my mind again. Concern crossed both Lissa’s face and the bond.
“Rose, are you okay?” she asked softly.
Lissa was my best friend, but I didn’t want her to know how scared and upset the whole thing had made me. I wanted to be fierce.
“Fine,” I said, teeth clenched.
“What was it like?” asked Christian. Curiosity filled his voice, but there was guilt there too¡ªlike he knew it was wrong to want to know about such a horrible thing. He couldn’t stop himself from asking, though. Lack of impulse control was one thing we had in common.
“It was …” I shook my head. “I don’t want to talk about it.”
Christian started to protest, and then Lissa ran a hand through his sleek black hair. The gentle admonishment silenced him. A moment of awkwardness hung between us all. Reading Lissa’s mind, I felt her desperately grope for a new topic.
“They say this is going to mess up all of the holiday visits,” she told me after several more moments. “Christian’s aunt is going to visit, but most people don’t want to travel, and they want their kids to stay here where it’s safe. They’re terrified this group of Strigoi is on the move.”
I hadn’t thought about the ramifications of an attack like this. We were only a week or so away from Christmas. Usually, there was a huge wave of travel in the Moroi world this time of year. Students went home to visit their parents; parents came to stay on campus and visit their children.
“This is going to keep a lot of families separated,” I murmured.
“And mess up a lot of royal get-togethers,” said Christian. His brief seriousness had vanished; his snide air was back. “You know how they are this time of year¡ªalways competing with each other to throw the biggest parties. They won’t know what to do with themselves.”
I could believe it. My life was about fighting, but the Moroi certainly had their share of internal strife¡ªparticularly with nobles and royals. They waged their own battles with words and political alliances, and honestly, I preferred the more direct method of hitting and kicking. Lissa and Christian in particular had to navigate some troubled waters. They were both from royal families, which meant they got a lot of attention both inside and outside of the Academy.
Things were worse for them than for most Moroi royals. Christian’s family lived under the shadow cast by his parents. They had purposely become Strigoi, trading their magic and morality to become immortal and subsist on killing others. His parents were dead now, but that didn’t stop people from not trusting him. They seemed to think he’d go Strigoi at any moment and take everyone else with him. His abrasiveness and dark sense of humor didn’t really help things, either.
Lissa’s attention came from being the last one left in her family. No other Moroi had enough Dragomir blood in them to earn the name. Her future husband would probably have enough somewhere in his family tree to make sure her children were Dragomirs, but for now, being the only one made her kind of a celebrity.
Thinking about this suddenly reminded me of the warning scrawled on the mirror. Nausea welled up in me. That dark anger and despair stirred, but I pushed it aside with a joke.
“You guys should try solving your problems like we do. A fistfight here and there might do you royals some good.”
Both Lissa and Christian laughed at this. He glanced up at her with a sly smile, showing his fangs as he did. “What do you think? I bet I could take you if we went one on one.”
“You wish,” she teased. Her troubled feelings lightened.
“I do, actually,” he said, holding her gaze.
There was an intensely sensual note to his voice that made her heart race. Jealousy shot through me. She and I had been best friends our entire life. I could read her mind. But the fact remained: Christian was a huge part of her world now, and he played a role I never could¡ªjust as he could never have a part of the connection that existed between me and her. We both sort of accepted but didn’t like the fact that we had to split her attention, and at times, it seemed the truce we held for her sake was paper thin.
Lissa brushed her hand against his cheek. “Behave.”
“I am,” he told her, his voice still a little husky. “Sometimes. But sometimes you don’t want me to….”
Groaning, I stood up. “God. I’m going to leave you guys alone now.”
Lissa blinked and dragged her eyes away from Christian, suddenly looking embarrassed.
“Sorry,” she murmured. A delicate pink flush spread over her cheeks. Since she was pale like all Moroi, it actually sort of made her look prettier. Not that she needed much help in that department. “You don’t have to go….”
“No, it’s fine. I’m exhausted,” I assured her. Christian didn’t look too broken up about seeing me leave. “I’ll catch you tomorrow.”
I started to turn away, but Lissa called to me. “Rose? Are you…are you sure you’re okay? After everything that happened?”
I met her jade green eyes. Her concern was so strong and deep that it made my chest ache. I might be closer to her than anyone else in the world, but I didn’t want her worrying about me. It was my job to keep her safe. She shouldn’t be troubled about protecting me¡ªparticularly if Strigoi had suddenly decided to make a hit list of royals.
I flashed her a saucy grin. “I’m fine. Nothing to worry about except you guys tearing each other’s clothes before I get a chance to leave.”
“Then you better go now,” said Christian dryly.
She elbowed him, and I rolled my eyes. “Good night,” I told them.
As soon as my back was to them, my smile vanished. I walked back to my dorm with a heavy heart, hoping I wouldn’t dream about the Badicas tonight.
Three
THE LOBBY OF MY DORM was abuzz when I sprinted downstairs to my before-school practice. The commotion didn’t surprise me. A good night’s sleep had gone far to chase away the images from last night, but I knew neither I nor my classmates would easily forget what had taken place outside Billings.
And yet, as I studied the faces and clusters of other novices, I noticed something weird. The fear and tension from yesterday were still around, certainly, but something new was there too: excitement. A couple of freshmen novices were practically squealing with joy as they spoke in hushed whispers. Nearby, a group of guys my own age were gesturing wildly, enthusiastic grins on their faces.
I had to be missing something here¡ªunless all of yesterday had been a dream. It took every ounce of self-control I had not to go over and ask somebody what was happening. If I delayed, I’d be late for practice. The curiosity was killing me, though. Had the Strigoi and their humans been found and killed? That would certainly be good news, but something told me that wasn’t the case. Pushing open the front doors, I lamented that I’d just have to wait until breakfast to find out.
“Hath-away, don’t run-away,” a singsong voice called.
I glanced behind me and grinned. Mason Ashford, another novice and a good friend of mine, jogged up and fell in step with me.
“What are you, twelve?” I asked, continuing on toward the gym.
“Nearly,” he said. “I missed your smiling face yesterday. Where were you?”
Apparently my presence at the Badica house still wasn’t widely known. It wasn’t a secret or anything, but I didn’t want to discuss any gory details. “Had a training thing with Dimitri.”
“God,” muttered Mason. “That guy is always working you. Doesn’t he realize he’s depriving us of your beauty and charm?”
“Smiling face? Beauty and charm? You’re laying it on a little thick this morning, aren’t you?” I laughed.
“Hey, I’m just telling it like it is. Really, you’re lucky to have someone as suave and brilliant as me paying this much attention to you.”
I kept grinning. Mason was a huge flirt, and he liked to flirt with me in particular. Part of it was just because I was good at it and liked to flirt back. But I knew his feelings toward me were more than just friendly, and I was still deciding how I felt about that. He and I had the same goofy sense of humor and frequently drew attention to ourselves in class and among friends. He had gorgeous blue eyes and messy red hair that never seemed to lie flat. It was cute.
But dating someone new was going to be kind of difficult when I still kept thinking about the time I was half-naked in bed with Dimitri.
“Suave and brilliant, huh?” I shook my head. “I don’t think you pay nearly as much attention to me as you do your ego. Someone needs to knock it down a little.”
“Oh yeah?” he asked. “Well, you can try your best on the slopes.”
I stopped walking. “The what?”
“The slopes.” He tilted his head. “You know, the ski trip.”
“What ski trip?” I was apparently missing something serious here.
“Where have you been this morning?” he asked, looking at me like I was a crazy woman.
“In bed! I only got up, like, five minutes ago. Now, start from the beginning and tell me what you’re talking about.” I shivered from the lack of movement. “And let’s keep walking.” We did.
“So, you know how everyone’s afraid to have their kids come home for Christmas? Well, there’s this huge ski lodge in Idaho that’s exclusively used by royals and rich Moroi. The people who own it are opening it up for Academy students and their families¡ªand actually any other Moroi who want to go. With everyone in one spot, they’re going to have a ton of guardians to protect the place, so it’ll be totally safe.”
“You can’t be serious,” I said. We reached the gym and stepped inside out of the cold.
Mason nodded eagerly. “It’s true. The place is supposed to be amazing.” He gave me the grin that always made me smile in return. “We’re going to live like royalty, Rose. At least for a week or so. We take off the day after Christmas.”
I stood there, both excited and stunned. I hadn’t seen this coming. It really was a brilliant idea, one that let families reunite safely. And what a reunion spot! A royal ski lodge. I’d expected to spend most of my holiday break hanging out here and watching TV with Lissa and Christian. Now I’d be living it up in five-star accommodations. Lobster dinners. Massages. Cute ski instructors …
Mason’s enthusiasm was contagious. I could feel it welling up in me, and then, suddenly, it slammed to a halt.
Studying my face, he saw the change right away. “What’s wrong? This is cool.”
“It is,” I admitted. “And I get why everyone’s excited, but the reason we’re getting to go to this fancy place is because, well, because people are dead. I mean, doesn’t this all seem weird?”
Mason’s cheery expression sobered a little. “Yeah, but we’re alive, Rose. We can’t stop living because other people are dead. And we have to make sure more people don’t die. That’s why this place is such a great idea. It’s safe.” His eyes turned stormy. “God, I can’t wait until we’re out of here in the field. After hearing about what happened, I just want to go tear apart some Strigoi. I wish we could go now, you know? There’s no reason. They could use the extra help, and we pretty much know everything we need to.”
The fierceness in his voice reminded me of my outburst yesterday, though he wasn’t quite as worked up as I’d been. His eagerness to act was impetuous and na?ve, whereas mine had been born out of some weird, dark irrationality I still didn’t entirely understand.
When I didn’t respond, Mason gave me a puzzled look. “Don’t you want to?”
“I don’t know, Mase.” I stared down at the floor, avoiding his eyes as I studied the toe of my shoe. “I mean, I don’t want Strigoi out there, attacking people either. And I want to stop them in theory… but, well, we aren’t even close to being ready. I’ve seen what they can do I don’t know. Rushing in isn’t the answer.” I shook my head and looked back up. Good grief. I sounded so logical and cautious. I sounded like Dimitri. “It’s not important since it’s not going to happen anyway. I suppose we should just be excited about the trip, huh?”
Mason’s moods were quick to change, and he turned easygoing once more. “Yup. And you’d better try to remember how to ski, because I’m calling you out on knocking down my ego out there. Not that it’s going to happen.”
I smiled again. “Boy, it sure is going to be sad when I make you cry. I kind of feel guilty already.”
He opened his mouth, no doubt to deliver some smartass reply, and then caught sight of something¡ªor rather, someone¡ªbehind me. I glanced over and saw Dimitri’s tall form approaching from the other side of the gym.
Mason swept me a gallant bow. “Your lord and master. Catch you later, Hathaway. Start planning your ski strategies.” He opened the door and disappeared into the frigid darkness. I turned around and joined Dimitri.
Like other dhampir novices, I spent half of my school day on one form or another of guardian training, be it actual physical combat or learning about Strigoi and how to defend against them. Novices also sometimes had practices after school. I, however, was in a unique situation.
I still stood by my decision to run away from St. Vladimir’s. Victor Dashkov had posed too much of a threat to Lissa. But our extended vacation had come with consequences. Being away for two years had put me behind in my guardian classes, so the school had declared that I had to make up for it by going to extra practices before and after school.
With Dimitri.
Little did they know that they were also giving me lessons in avoiding temptation. But my attraction to him aside, I was a fast learner, and with his help, I had almost caught up to the other seniors.
Since he wasn’t wearing a coat, I knew we’d be working inside today, which was good news. It was freezing out. Yet even the happiness I felt over that was nothing compared to what I felt when I saw what exactly he had set up in one of the training rooms.
There were practice dummies arranged on the far wall, dummies that looked amazingly lifelike. No straw-stuffed burlap bags here. There were men and women, wearing ordinary clothes, with rubbery skin and different hair and eye colors. Their expressions ranged from happy to scared to angry. I’d worked with these dummies before in other trainings, using them to practice kicks and punches. But I’d never worked with them while holding what Dimitri held: a silver stake.
“Sweet,” I breathed.
It was identical to the one I’d found at the Badica house. It had a hand grip at the bottom, almost like a hilt without the little side flourishes. That was where its resemblance to a dagger ended. Rather than a flat blade, the stake had a thick, rounded body that narrowed to a point, kind of like an ice pick. The entire thing was a little shorter than my forearm.
Dimitri leaned casually against the wall, in an easy stance he always pulled off remarkably well, despite being almost six-seven. With one hand, he tossed the stake into the air. It spun around in a cartwheel a couple of times and then came down. He caught it hilt first.
“Please tell me I get to learn how to do that today,” I said.
Amusement flashed in the dark depths of his eyes. I think he had a hard time keeping a straight face around me sometimes.
“You’ll be lucky if I let you hold it today,” he said. He flipped the stake into the air again. My eyes followed it longingly. I started to point out that I had already held one, but I knew that line of logic would get me nowhere.
Instead, I tossed my backpack on the floor, threw off my coat, and crossed my arms expectantly. I had on loose pants tied at the waist and a tank top with a hoodie over it. My dark hair was pulled brutally back into a ponytail. I was ready for anything.
“You want me to tell you how they work and why I should always be cautious around them,” I announced.
Dimitri stopped flipping the stake and stared at me in astonishment.
“Come on,” I laughed. “You don’t think I know how you work by now? We’ve been doing this for almost three months. You always make me talk safety and responsibility before I can do anything fun.”
“I see,” he said. “Well, I guess you’ve got it all figured out. By all means, go on with the lesson. I’ll just wait over here until you need me again.”
He tucked the stake into a leather sheath hanging from his belt and then made himself comfortable against the wall, hands stuffed in pockets. I waited, figuring he was joking, but when he said nothing else, I realized he’d meant his words. With a shrug, I launched into what I knew.
“Silver always has powerful effects on any magical creature¡ªit can help or hurt them if you put enough power into it. These stakes are really hard-core because it takes four different Moroi to make them, and they use each of the elements during the forging.” I frowned, suddenly considering something. “Well, except spirit. So these things are supercharged and are about the only non-decapitating weapon that can do damage to a Strigoi¡ªbut to kill them, it has to be through the heart.”